Sunday, October 10, 2010

Doctor, we're losing him! Well don't just stand there, Nurse. Get him some eggs chopped up in a cup!

Shoes! My new shoes arrived this morning!
Shoes No. 33: Vivienne Westwood Anglomania for Melissa Lady Dragon Cherry shoes
I have a real weakness for peeptoe shoes, it seems. These pretties are even lovelier in real life, the cherries are amazing! I'm not sure how much chance I'll have to wear these as autumn is definitely drawing in, but a thing of beauty is a joy forever and there's always the spring.
Last night my lovely Nic took me out for a wee early evening date to Wilde's and I wore one of the Max C dresses I bought from Paul's of Aughnacloy:
Needless to say, I put on a cardigan and a coat before leaving the house! Wilde's was excellent. It was before dinner so it was very quiet and it was happy hour, so I got a large glass of wine for the price of a small one. I'm a simple pleasures kind of girl, what can I say? Nic and I had a really pleasant evening eating home made channa dall and watching an episode of The State Within. It turns out that it's not really about spies, and that I can follow it okay. Also, Jason Isaacs is HOT:
Mmmm...I think he's a bit like a posh English Jon Hamm. Or at least, he is in The State Within. Dishy!
I went back to work this week and it was surprisingly okay. As a way of getting me acclimatised to it I'm on somewhat modified duties and it really is helping to ease me back in. While my workplace is closing down, my job is not at threat at the moment but I will have the option to take voluntary redundancy at the end of January. This is what I'll do, I think. The redundancy terms are really generous and while the ideal situation would be to be able to start a new job straightaway I'll be able to manage if that isn't possible. Anyway, having a possible end date in mind is actually really soothing, so I'm largely feeling okay about my return to work. I'm keen not to run before I can walk, if you will forgive the cliche. One of the important things about having time away was the space to think about how things affect me, and how I can deal with it. I've been trying to apply CBT techniques to stressful situations and it isn't like a magic wand, but it does help me to feel more in control of myself. I'm a terrible one for spiralling, and this is something I feel like I'm gradually getting under control. We'll see though, I've got a few upcoming things that I'm feeling nervous about and I'm trying hard not to let my propensity for worry talk me out of doing things that are good for me. All in all, however, I am feeling a lot more like my old self, and long may it continue!
So, I'm going to have to cut this short here as Nic and I are having an early dinner tonight. Then I'm off out to meet the Sew Make Believe ladies. We're all expecting a Very Happy Event at some point over the next few weeks, and we're getting together to celebrate that. I plan to wear my cherry shoes over the weekend, with a bee-yoo-ti-ful sailor dress I bought from ebay so expect some pictures soon!