I don't know if I can write that more coherent blog post I boasted about the other day, you know. I just don't know if I have it in me, but I suppose my friends and readers know by now that I'm a bit of a slabber so I'm not going to worry unduly.
Well, I suppose that got me over the old 'what should I write for my first sentence?' dilemma!
Maybe it's the sunshine, I don't know, but I am feeling a lot chirpier today. I didn't think I would when I woke up this morning though, I was in a bad mood. I had drifted off into a nice comfortable sleep last night, only to be rudely awoken at about 4 in the morning by some sort of alarm going off. It was so loud that at first I thought it was the fire alarm in our building, but it was just something going off on our street or the street next to us. It's one of the perils of living in the middle of town, there's always some racket going off outside - it just seems much worse at four in the morning! I held onto my sanity by reminding myself that in The Remorseful Day, the final episode of Inspector Morse, Morse reckons that these kinds of alarms cut out automatically after half an hour. This one didn't, but it did change frequency and I was able to drown out the second set with earplugs, but of course by that time it was bloody difficult to get back to sleep. So, I slept late and dragged my grumpy ass to work, I was not feeling it.
Anyway, I ended up having a really nice day. I think it was definitely helped by the sunshine, and by the fact that lots of my colleagues were in the office. Some of my colleagues from the department I used to work for have also joined us, so that's good too - it's nice to be working with old friends. Also, I had something really nice to look forward to because I was meeting Louise for lunch. We went to Inspire again, and like the last time nattered away like two old friends, it was so relaxing and it really made my day. Also, Louise and her lovely hubby had bought me a wee gift at a boot sale at the weekend - a Hornsea pot!
This one is in the Saffron pattern. I have been collecting the Heirloom pattern, but have been looking to find nice examples of Saffron as well so I was so delighted with this. Immediately I got home I filled it with my earl grey tea bags and found a nice spot in the kitchen for it. I was so touched by the gift and felt grateful once again to have randomly sat opposite Louise's husband all those months ago in work!
I had two meetings when I got back to the office and then scooted off to the railway station - my train was cancelled due to signal failures so I had to get the bus back to Leamington, but I was in such a good mood it didn't bother me. In fact, I quite enjoyed my bus journey home, it was nice to have time to stare out the window and think and daydream.
This evening was the Sew Make Believe social so after dinner I popped up to The White Horse. I changed out of my sandals into my lovely Bertie shoes and Nic took a wee photo of my outfit:
Ruby Belle Photograph Beach dress, Bertie shoes and the cardigan is from Mango.
A few of the ladies couldn't make it due to illness, but we had a lovely time all the same. It was good to catch up with Lysy and Lauren and to meet some new people too, and the time passed by much quicker than I realised. I got home to find Nic watching a Clint Eastwood film, and I think I'm going to take myself off to bed quite soon as I have an early start in the morning.
Working backwards here, but I had a good day yesterday as well. I worked from home and had the house to myself as Nic had to be on campus. I got some work done in the morning and spent my lunch hour being very domesticated by cleaning the kitchen while listening to You and Yours on Radio Four. It was one of those days where I felt like I got lots done because in between my work I got lots of bits and pieces done around the house, and it made me feel happy and purposeful. In the evening Nic and I had a lovely walk around Leamington (and a go on the swings in Victoria Park) and a long talk, and I also finished the present I have been making. It looks really good - it's just a little crochet blanket for a colleague whose wife is expecting their first child, but I like the colour combinations:
It helps, I think, to feel like I have taken a bit of control over my life. Or, at the very least, gained a bit of perspective. Over the weekend I turned over lots of ideas in my head of things that I can do to make myself feel better, or to protect myself or whatever. None of the ideas I had seemed to be right, but coming to the decision that I should just carry on as I am seemed the most positive. I can't control what others do or say, and I can't control how I feel about it, I suppose, but I can attempt to not let it rule me. Big words, I know - and no doubt there'll be plenty more stressy blog posts in future but again I feel like I've reached a bit of peace, which means I can enjoy life a bit more!
Right, now I think I'm going to watch the last ten minutes or so of this film because I've just realised that not only does it have John Mahoney in it, but Joshua Malina too. And then it's definitely time for bed. Oh, but before I go I'm going to share with you the dilemma of the week that my sister sends me every Wednesday. This week it is Would you rather have the face of a goat, or the ass of a baboon?